I woke up late and almost missed the bus but I got on just in time. Good thing, too. I wouldn’t want to miss hanging with Ian again. I made my breakfast quick, not waiting for a bagel, and just grabbed a cereal cup once I went into the school. When I came out I was greeted with a bombardment of hugs by Amanda and Venus. And wouldn’t you know it, Ian, Rita, and Shaira were there as well. Things were fine until Frankie came outside with a couple of his friends to screw with me and Ian. He asked us if we were really going out. Yes. If we’ve hugged at all. Yes. And if we kissed each other. No. He tried to encourage us to kiss each other right there. But it seemed pretty odd just doing it right then and there and why would we want to satisfy them?

Homeroom was a bit odd. I told Ella and a couple other friends about how it went telling my parents. Once I started talking about it the whole class went silent. I was in mid-story when I looked up to see EVERYONE staring at me. I could have sworn I was only talking to one person.

The day started with Math, in which I can finally understand some of the things we are learning about. Finally! Then we had English. I think the teacher forgot about yesterday’s incident with my smart remark. But I was laying low the whole class trying not to get any attention.

Then was Science where we got assigned groups for our astronomy project. Let me tell you. I got absolutely screwed with this one! I would have preferred any other group then the one I had now. Hell there was one which included Shaira, Rita, and Charles. One had Ricky and Jonathan. And another had my friends Jenelle and Leah. But no I get caught in a group of strangers and a psycho bitch!

Next was FACS which turned into a study since the teacher wasn’t there for like the millionth time! And of course she had to leave a worksheet for us to finish. But me and Sam just said ‘screw this’ and went straight for our homework. Any of the answers on the worksheet would be common sense to a normal person as I scanned it over before tossing it aside.

Lunch was amazing. I had gotten so pissed at Doug since he kept throwing food and got knows what else at me. Something even hit my eye which felt like a rock, or just the crappy cafeteria food. Then Andrew had said to him, “Doug! You hatin’ on **** because he’s gay?” Doug just smiled and said, “No. I just don’t want a friend who could potentially butt fuck me.” He thought he was so smart. So I got in the game. And I ended it fast. “I told you Doug, I’m not into pussy.” I had said back at him. The whole table made an “Oooh!” which made Doug sink into his seat and whisper, “Faggot…” which was the key word in letting me know I had won.

Next was Latin, where I continued to pry at Devon to tell me why he was upset with me, but to no avail. Then we had History. The teacher is really starting to get on my nerves saying, “I heard that!” every time I talk to Sam. Lastly was directed study where I continued to lay low form our English teacher who watched our class.

“Hey Christian!” Shaira told me as I was about to leave. “Ian said he wanted to see you.” I hadn’t expected Ian to call me. I had walked down to his hall way where I spotted him coming down the ramp. “Shaira said you wanted to see me?” He said yes as he lead me to the corner of the main lobby. He looked at me for a few seconds, and then moved toward me as he pressed his lips to mine.

OMG! I just got kissed by a boy, and a cute one, for the first time! He looked at me and said, “Happy?” with a smile. “Yes.” I said with a big grin on my face. As I left the building I saw a group of kids I knew, Chris, Yuki, and Avi, staring at me. I think they saw what just happened, and they were as shocked as I was.

I gave Ella a huge hug when I met her at the bus stop, and told her what happened. “Yay!” she said back to me, and we hugged while apparently spinning in circles. A bunch of sixth graders had followed me and Ella onto the bus and this one kid, Reed, had called me out in front of everyone about Ian. Of course I had nothing to hide, and that became the topic of discussion the whole ride home.

I’m home now. Freezing my ass off. And of course thinking about that big event. When I thought about it, the kiss was pretty weird. Probably because he caught me of guard and I couldn’t kiss him back. It was still incredibly cute of him.

And there’s one more thing I want to ask everyone here. Do you think me and Ian are going a bit fast? That thought kind of haunts me. Rita had told me of a time where she had a relationship that went too fast and they broke up shortly. I really don’t want that to happen. Leave a comment of your opinion below.



I had been talking with Shaira, Rita, and Charlie last night about our project and then just a friendly chat with everyone. Just a random current events session. Then Ian came along asking about me saying I liked his hair (and I love it!) He has nice long blond hair down to his chest! Gorgeous! Then Shaira, Rita, and Charles left me and Ian alone. They wanted Ian to ask me out. Rita kept on in a separate chat asking how it was going and if he asked me yet but he was stalling. It was all going wonderful until my dad started screaming about how he was having trouble tearing apart our old couch. And as you know I’m really not supposed to be on my computer. So I had to give a quick “gtg” and left without another word, leaving poor Ian alone. I felt like an ass.

But today I was excited to see them all again and ended up skipping breakfast. But I didn’t really care. I wanted Ian to ask me so bad and I swear if he didn’t do it before the bells I would do it myself. I had been shifting from Ian to Shaira to Rita to Amanda and Venus to Brian. All I wanted was for Ian to freaking ask me! He was being sweet to me like when I was returning Brian’s kinky gloves but I told Brian to get my hat from his friend Taylor who had stolen it earlier. He didn’t want to play that game so he tried to just take the gloves. But Ian came in like a knight in shining armor and made Brian obey.

Then Brain-cheek-poking-hat-stealing Taylor came over again and knocked my hat off my head. She then picked it up and ran off with it. I began chasing her with Brian close behind. We had gotten all the way to almost the other side of the school building when a tall figure with flowing blond hair came rushing past us after Taylor. I stopped and shouted, “Go Ian!” and watched them disappear into the crowd of people.

Ian came out later with my hat and Taylor behind him, defeated. We walked back to our hangout spot where it was just about to go in. Apparently all our other friends were going in and it was just me left with Ian. He looked at me, I looked back…

“Ella!” I shouted to her as she came into homeroom. “Great news!” I shouted as I gave her a big bear hug. Ella giggled along with Sam who was right next to us. “What is it?” I looked up at her. “I have a boyfriend,” I whispered into her ear, not letting anyone else hear. She gaped at me with a big open-mouthed smile. “Who?” I was floating off the ground by now. “Ian ****!” They all knew him as Shaira’s ex-boyfriend. “No way!” she shouted. Sam was wondering what was up and I moved my lips into the form of the sentence ‘I have a boyfriend’. He surprisingly understood and asked me who it was. I told him it was Ian and he was so very happy for us.

Ian had popped the question on me right as we were going into school. I was just about to ask him myself at that point, too. My god I didn’t feel my feet on the ground the whole day. Right when he asked me I gave an immediate “Yes!” and gave him a huge hug. I then found Shaira and told her the good news. Her face lit up and she told me how happy she was for us and gave me a hug. So many hugs going around today. I walked in with Ian and we gave each other one more great hug before we went into our separate grades. Most people wouldn’t think of going out with someone in a lower grade than them but Ian is just so sweet and his hair is irresistible!

I hardly paid attention to my classes today because all I could think about was Ian, Ian, Ian! I had told Devon and a couple other friends, but I couldn’t find Rita anywhere. She was the one who would mostly want to hear this. Devon was not very happy for me however which really got me angry at him. Why not be happy? Your friend has finally found someone he can be happy with and you hate it? I told him, “How dare you be that way!” He was acting like it was something wrong and I thought we went over this. I suppose he had still not been the same though ever since I told him a while ago.

I had told Dan about it in Latin and he was happy with it. After that I shouted it over to Devon that Dan was such a good friend. Devon tried to reason with Dan to get him on his side but Dan being a good person said that it was perfectly fine. Next was Gym where we were playing Pickleball… Pickleball? It was really just oversized ping-pong with a badminton net. then we had History where Dan kept the whole class in stitches during our propaganda presentations acting like and outraged and insane man speaking his mind. He reminded me of Dr. Frankenstein from the movie where he was screaming to a college class. It was hilarious.

Our next period was directed study. Oh boy. I had got in there and already the entire school knew about me and Ian. This is just like the incident with me coming out. Frankie and his friends were being their usual asshole selves talking about gross inappropriate things. Then I was called over to awful-question-asking Taylor’s table where her and her friends Sarah, Maria, Ally, and a few others wanted to talk about me… again. They asked me the usual who’s hot and who’s not and some about Ian. Taylor asked the usual stupid questions and once she asked if I would give Ian a BJ I just turned and said, “Okay you are the biggest dumb bitch I have ever known.” That didn’t make her shut up but it did make her tone down the descriptive questions.

At the end they ended up dragging me over to a table of boys and making me rate them. The girls said they wouldn’t have a clue but they obviously knew exactly what was going on. I only got in one answer for one guy named Richie, who was a solid 8, before curling up in a ball on the floor laughing. Wow it was embarrassing.

At lunch Doug was his Dougly self and I got the first question, “****, do you really have a boyfriend?” I told them ‘yes’ but I didn’t give them a name for Ian’s sake. But that idea was shortly ruined by Ricky yelling out his name for all to hear. They were mocking me seeing as he was a seventh grader but I think either me or Ian could punch any of their lights out.

Next on the agenda was Math in which I told John, keeping it a secret form Chris and Adam, though. He was happy for me as well (it’s just Devon…) And then was Science where we watched a movie on the beginning of the universe with the Big Bang and all that. The only thing that caught my attention was that apparently human life is only going to be around for something-billion more years before the sun dies in a balloon type way and we get incinerated… Wow.

Last period was English which was boring and HOT! I felt like dying. When the day was over Shaira took me to see Ian on her way out. We greeted with hugs and a hello. But guess who followed us? I heard a voice from a certain “friend” who has been a recent pain-in-the-ass lately. “There you are!” Devon said from behind us. Devon was really being an ass around us and I just put my head down and waited for him to leave. After he was gone Ian didn’t seem to know what was going on with Devon. “He doesn’t like us,” I had told him. Ian said it was no big deal and he can fight so if it was necessary there shouldn’t be any problems.

We left each other with a hug and I was on my way to the bus with Brian. Next week will be his leaving day also known as my saddest day. But it happens I guess. Doesn’t mean I won’t cry.

Spring must be in the air! I love it! I also came home to almost a brand new couch. It was a lot bigger than it seemed in the store. The corner piece was also missing and I’ll have to bring it up into the house form the garage later.

Love. and:

MBTA stands for Massachusetts Bay Transportation Authority by the way.

So today started not so well. I got on the bus and overpaid for my fare. But the driver had the fare counter on the wrong setting. It was set to the normal fare rate rather than a student one. So I didn’t get my change. I told him I wanted it and was starting to get a bit teed off. He says in not even complete sentences, “go just let the next guy on.” I looked at him funny and tried telling him ‘no’ but he obviously didn’t care. “Give me my freaking money!” I shouted smacking the wooden sign on the back of his chair, almost snapping it in two. It was obvious he wasn’t going to give it to me so I just said, “Screw you,” and walked to the back of the bus with my middle finger in the air behind me.

Then on my way off the bus he told me to stop so he could talk to me. “Don’t be coming in here when I try to talk to you with those headphones on,” He said in an annoyed tone. It was obvious he didn’t see me take off the headphones when I told him to give me my god damn money in the first place. “I don’t give you the money because I see you get on for free all the time. I count it and ten times you get on for free. Remember?” I looked at him with an I-don’t-really-give-a-damn expression on my face. “No,” I said with a smartass attitude which I have mastered so well. “No? Well I see you get on for free all the time and if anything you owe me ten bus fares. Now explain yourself to me!” I was in no mood for him anymore. I walked off the bus all cool and held up my middle finger once more as he drove away. The crossing lady asked me what was up with the bus driver. All I could say was, “He’s an asshole.”

I made my usual routine of breakfast and headed into homeroom where I told Ella about the situation. “Oh my god, Christian!” she said. She seemed pretty annoyed with me. Apparently my attitude wasn’t appropriate toward the bus driver. But she wasn’t there.

We started with Science where we are now learning about astronomy which I am starting to actually get into. then we had History in which we worked on or propaganda some more. Then was Latin,and then to directed study. In study I sat with Frankie and his friends along with his ex-girlfriend Leila. We talked about the you-know-what and a lot about what we liked about Frankie.

Frankie started listening and wanted to know what we were saying about him and said, “Maybe if you tell em it would improve your chances with me.” I just gave him a ‘yeah right’ but he kept on insisting I tell him. I doubted it would ever happen but it intrigued me. So I decided to give him the eye dilation test. And wouldn’t you know it his eyes dilated when he looked at me. Even Leila agreed that they did. “What does that even mean?” I told him what it meant and he freaked. “Whoa! No way I don’t like Christian…” We all laughed and he was still skeptical so I told him to try it on Leila. His eyes didn’t dilate. “Damn,” he said.

Leila included at the end that Frankie was an excellent kisser. I looked at her with a smile. “Really?”

Last was English before Wiffle Ball for SOAR. And guess who was back from his recent suspension for mooning a girl? Douggy! He came in being a real asswipe or… Doug as I call it. He said to Frankie and their friend Sam, “Guys we have to say hi yo Christian in a proper way.” And then he said in the queen type gay voice including a girly pose and a tongue smack, “Haaay!” God I have to admit it was pretty funny. I forgot Doug got suspended right after everyone found out so he didn’t realize everything had kind of blown over by now. The best part about it was that Frankie actually had my back when Doug mocked me which I thought was really sweet of him, seeing how he usually always took Doug’s side on everything.

Our game was ruined however by the Mentoring kids, who I recently noticed all seem to look the same. It was way too crowded and they were making way too much noise than necessary. They also for some reason laughed after every strike one of their friends had, which annoyed the hell out of me. I looked over at Frankie and realized he had been pretty pissed the Mentoring kids were here, too.

On our way to our lockers at the end of the day Doug followed me saying, “Wait up, wait up!” in his gay queen voice. “What do you want, Doug?” I said trying to seem annoyed and not letting him know I was laughing at him. “A buttfuck,” he said in his normal voice again. I had the perfect comeback. “That can be arranged.” I got the laughs and Doug told his friends. Back at my locker Nick walked by and made the usual “faggot” remark. Somehow when he says it it annoys me, but no one else. Maybe because he really wants it to sting.

On the bus ride home Brian came to me and smacked me with his hat that had what felt like rocks in it. “Ow! What’s in there?” He had a pair of leather gloves and so I just had to try them on. They were pretty damn sweet so I decided to keep them… At least until tomorrow.

When I got home I had to take the old LOVE seat with my brother and put it on the front walk so it can go out in the trash. We had a huge struggle and I even got caught out on the top porch where we would be throwing it off of. We eventually got it through the doorway to the porch and watched it fall two stories to the ground below. Mommy was pissed however since we dented the gutter so she told me to fix it. So I hopped the railing, dangerously perching myself along the edge of the porch. It was actually pretty scary. But I just told myslelf to not think about falling and dying and that sort of stuff…

Once it was all done I was finally able to relax. Tomorrow we will be getting our new couch! Hooray! It’s actually really awesome. It’s a corner leather couch. Every seat reclines. It has a chaise at the end and even cup holders, which i king of found tacky but still awesome. I can’t wait!


Oh wow…

Today was my usual routine, except that Ricky and Billy wasn’t at breakfast when I got there. But I did get to eat with Amanda and Venus today. Happy St. Patrick’s Day! Amanda and Venus were dressed in all green, including bows, their clothes, necklaces, and a large green hat. I realized my attire was not according to the holiday today. We usually celebrate my mom’s birthday today, though. Yep. My mom was born on this day. We would be celebrating it later by cleaning her car.

Classes started with Latin, in which I had to go back to my locker mid-class to get my homework which I worked hard for last night and wasn’t about to have it missing today. Next was FACS, where we would be cooking our pretzels today. We were able to shape them any way we wanted. I wanted to do something interesting, and it came to me. Shaira thought it was the cutest thing. And I made two so I could interlock them. Can’t guess? Here’s a hint:

English and Science were the usual. Then was Drama. Boy was I pissed at the teacher. She gave us a test today, but she obviously didn’t know how to make one because she ended up asking us questions about the school play which I never saw… I was going to write a note but didn’t want to bother. I was passing this class anyway for showing up.

Lunch was… odd. The boys wanted to mess with me some more so this time Frankie did the finger in the fly trick, which I just giggled at. They also teased Billy because I said if I had the chance I would kiss him. They were saying that if that was true then it would be happening sometime soon. Clever. At the end of lunch they were trying to turn me on by lifting up their shirts. And I’ll be honest… It did. Ricky did it first to which I responded, “Keep going.” Me and my mouth. Then Nick did it which the boys obviously caught me being interested. I probably should have looked away a few seconds into it but it was too tempting.

We started a propaganda project in History in groups, which for me included this boy Jonathan, who may just be my answer to the cutest boy in school question. He is perfect. Great body, dark blond curly hair, sweet blue eyes, and braces, which I seem to find a total turn on! And lastly we had Math. I was paying attention perfectly in class until I got a call from the office saying I had to go down later.

At the end of the day I went down where I was sat down by the principal and the guidance counselor. I was first asked the usual how I’m doing and how my grades were. Then it was down to business. At first I thought they found out I was gay and wanted to talk about it and if I was getting trouble. But they had told me that someone reported me smoking. It was apparently a worried friend but a worried friend wouldn’t lie. They acted all worried and said they were going to call my mom. Oh god… Though I think I handled it well by laughing at them and walking out.

When I went back to my locker to pack up, John came over to me and asked what was up with me and the office. I told him and he just gave a puzzled look. “I know,” I said to him. I met up with Brian and told him about it, and he just laughed. I almost put my thumb and index up t my lips as I was walking by the office to mess with the teachers but they weren’t there and I think I got the message across by being a smartass.

When I got home I talked to my mom about it. She had gotten the call and apparently argued with them. She said to them that if it was one of her other kids she would listen but not me. She also said that if I were to ever go to the office it would be for knocking someones teeth in seeing all the crap I put up with. She thinks that the comments on my being gay were because of my earring. Thank god she’s off the trail on that one. She says she want us to communicate more but I think she knows all she needs to.

Boy I hope my mom didn’t say too much otherwise I may end up back in the office about my other problems…


I am supposed to be doing my Latin homework right now and my dad said he’ll reset my password later. The current password is “I AM A COMPLETE IDIOT”. I tried to crack the password before and I tried calling myself an idiot but I never would have guessed to put the word ‘complete’ before it. If I can crack it later I will definitely be able to get back on track with my blog posts again.

So today began like the usual, except I woke up late so I had no time to straighten my hair. so I went through the day with my not-as-pretty hair. It was okay though since I straightened it last night so it was almost straight. At breakfast, though, I was a bit teed off at the smaller kids who are friends with Ricky and his cute twin Billy. (Twin? Wouldn’t that mean they’re both cute? Well yes, but they’re fraternal so they don’t look alike.)

They were acting like I was some sort of disease being gay since they just found out yesterday at breakfast. One kid, Tommy (Ricky and Billy’s other brother) was really being an ass so I said to him, “Tommy. I will fuck you so hard you’ll cry.” He apparently got scared of me then seeing as he just got up and left after giving me a weird look. Then his other friend, whose name escapes me, left because I told him, “You’re next. I got a thing for short people.” and as he was leaving I shouted “Bye, Sweetie!” Good times.

We had a sub in Math today so I got to sit at a different table with John, Chris, and a couple of girls. I told them I was starting to freak out seeing as my mom is catching on to me being gay. It didn’t help yesterday that I tried to walk away after she asked the question. I just wanted to get out of there.

Next was English then Latin, a bore as always. Next was FACS class, where we are now making soft pretzels. The dough looked pretty dry, though. I think we may have screwed up somewhere. Sam had asked me, “So… do you like watch… gay porn?” It wasn’t like Sam to ask but knowing him it wasn’t him just trying to get a cheap laugh. So I told him yes and he then asked me if it was enjoyable, to which I just didn’t answer.

At lunch Nick was once again being his usual dumbass self. He did that finger in the fly trick to which I today responded, “How much do you ant for it?” He talked with his friends and then said, “Eighty dollars.” I gave him a look and said, “For that pathetic thing?” It got the “Ohhhh!” from the rest of the guys at the table. I am good.

History was next. The teacher is starting to get on my nerves. Every time I say something to Sam he says, “I heard that.” Next time he does I think I’ll just ask him, “Well what did I say then?” I’ll get him yet.

On the ride home, the rain had apparently blocked off the path that the bus driver takes, so he decided to make a surprise detour around his route and directly to the station. I asked him what was going on and he said to me, “Well I’m going to the station.” And when I told him I needed to get off, he said to me, “Well that’s what you get for not listening.” I was really pissed at him now. Like I could hear him with my obviously noticeable giant headphones on. So I shouted “Well fuck you then!” and stomped to the back. I called my mom to pick me up and waited to arrive there. Maybe I’d run into Brian there.

I got to the station and two people behind me asked, “Do you know where you’re going?” I don’t know why but seeing these nice people for a change put a smile on my face. “I do now.” They smiled back and headed down the stairs to the train station. At least there are some good people in the world. But bus drivers… Bus drivers are assholes.

I am now home enjoying some brownies I made for the hell of it. It’s probably the first thing I made that i didn’t burn. I hope to get back to posting like I normally do again. The school computer doesn’t support the WordPress page theme. So it looks like a blank HTML page and it just makes it harder to write with.


Right now I am posting from our school’s media center since my computer at home was taken away from me due to my not so great grades. It sucks. So I’ll have to make this post sweet and short.
So today really sucked seing as it has been pouring rain since yesterday. I ended up waiting at the bus stop for a whole ten minutes getting soaked before it came. When I got to school I was so drenched I decided to go through the day with no socks on. It started with math which was your basic worksheets, then Latin where I doodled as always. Next was science where we continued our insulator. Then gym in which we were supposed to have a health class but we ended up joining other classes instead.
At lunch the boy Nick tried to hit on me but I know he’s straight so I try to ignore him. Today he scooted over to me with his thumb sticking out his fly trying to make it look like you-know-what. I just looked away.
On the way back to classes he walked by me and called me a faggot. I know I couldn’t let him get to me and it didn’t. I turned around and said, “Love you too, sweetheart!” with a smile.
Then we had English and History, the usual snore, and then Drama.
In Drama I was interviewed the usual gay questions by this girl Paula. She wasn’t as disturbing as Taylor though. We talked about who we thought was hot and another conversation about Frankie. It wans’t creepy at all and was a fun chat.
I now have to go homne and rescue my drowning basement. Sorry for no pictures and not a long post. I’ll try to get a better one in tomorrow.


Okay I am sneaking a post in form home right now.

When I got home the driveway was flooded. I had to spend the whole afternoon shoveling it out. Thne I decided to go down the park because the water was waist deep. To think that it was dry land at some point and this much rain had filled it. I later realized it was mixed with raw sewage which I showered off later. I got some footage on tape, too. If I can I may be able to post it here at some point but not for a while.

When I got home my mom said that my sister Abby had been told by these two people, Lorenzo and Reed, that I was gay. I pretended it was all some crazy lie but I wanted to cry. I would like to have a talk with the two boys, maybe I’ll have to drive it through their skulls too…

Things are getting too close and I’ll really have to watch myself. I told my sister to not let my mom in on any of that stuff again. She didn’t think for a second the boys may have been right either.

Oh today was an incredible of days. The morning was as usual, wake up, breakfast, and hanging with Amanda and Venus again. Then our day began. It started with progress reports in homeroom. I got a C in math and English, B’s in History and Science, and a D+ in Latin. I knew this was coming so there were no surprises. (BTW if I don’t end up posting on Monday it’s because my computer and Xbox were taken away as punishment.)

My parents take away my xbox and stuff because they think that’s why I’m losing it in school. If they read this blog they would realize that my life is actually more interesting. But no I am just a lazy as to them and if they make my life more boring it will make me a better person. It won’t help me though. All it does is bore the hell out of me. I’m just going ot have to find something to occupy my time a little more.

The day started with Latin, in which we had a quiz, which I aced for the first time in a while. Then second period there was a change in schedule. We were going to get a preview of the school play! It was fantastic. It was titled, “13”. It’s about a Jewish boy who moves away from New York right as his Bar Mitzvah is coming up. He then makes a new friend who is apparently hated by the school and wants to fit in but also wants to be friends with said hated friend. It’s fun and colorful and the acting was quite cheesy at times but it was a god time. I wanted to see the whole play but my mom wouldn’t let me…

The star of the show was the obvious Tristan. He got the lead role last year as Troy in High School Musical. This year he played Evan. Everyone’s favorite actor was Mason, who played a small crippled boy named Archie. Mason is probably one of the cutest boys I’ve ever seen, and today I found out he has a voice like an angel! I would have really really wanted to see the rest of the play but since I couldn’t I’ll probably find out how it went on Monday.

After the play I had encore study, where things got kind of out of hand. It started out slow with Frankie’s usual silly comments that I like him. Then in the middle a group of girls came up to me and wanted to talk about you know what… Frankie asked me when they came up in a mocking voice, “You feel uncomfortable with girls all around you? Most guys would love it…” I rolled my eyes at that one. Taylor(the one who shouted that I’d fuck Frankie to the bus) wanted to know a little bit more about it. She said she was serious but anyone hearing the questions would’ve thought she was trying to mess with me. She asked if i jacked off, to which I responded, “I’m pretty sure all boys do. Not just gay ones.” Then she wanted to know how often gay people do it. I’m pretty sure that’s the same for all boys, too. And like I know…

The questions got a little more uncomfortable as she went along, talking about who I liked. On that one we ended up talking forever about Frankie’s gorgeous eyes. They are a pale bluish-gray which gives you a shiver as if you were on ice. They are the most dreamy eyes I have ever seen in my life.

I surprisingly answered all the questions completely honestly, and the whole table ended up getting involved which was a little weird. At the end of the period Taylor went a little out of line and asked me how large mine was… That I refused to answer seeing as for one i have no idea, and two that seems a bit unreasonable to answer. The teacher dismissed us right after the question was asked so I didn’t stick around for her to ask again.

After that discussion, somehow it only took ten minutes for the entire school to find out I was gay. Suddenly, at the start of the next period, this kid Danny was looking for me outside my hallway. At first I thought he was going to beat me crapless since he’s that kind of guy. Then at lunch he came over to my table to just confirm I was truly gay. Then some girl Ashley told her entire table at lunch that I was gay. I didn’t turn around but Ricky said they were looking at me. Then another table next to mine was staring at me with creepy smiles. All eyes were on me.

Then as I was shifting from math to science a boy Lakota said to me, “Did you really tell everyone you were gay?” I said yes and he just walked with a smile to his next class. Then I overheard this guy Michael in our English class saying to his friend Henry, “He’s gay.” I could only imagine who they were talking about. The last of the comments happened at the end of the day when this sort-of friend of mine came up to me in the hallway and just wanted to confirm it. Then he asked if I thought he was hot in the hallway. I just made the ‘sort of’ hand gesture to him.

Did i say that was the last of it? Oh. Well on the bus some girl sat next to me and asked, “Did you say you like Frankie, like… gay?” So I said plainly, “Yes.” She said it was weird… Weird? God some people… My buddy Sam just piped up and called her a dumb hoe. It’s not like Sam to speak up like that but it was pretty funny if you ask me, and she had it coming.  I then hit on Sam, although I wouldn’t actually consider going out with him. He’s cute and all, but I know for a fact he’s straight and we’re too good of friends to be together. It was a good deal of laughs, though. He kept getting grossed out, which left Ella, a good friend of mine plus Sam’s best friend and girlfriend in stitches.

I came home to be yelled at by my parents about my grades, which honestly, I could care less about at the moment. I think there’s something bigger going on right now.

So now everyone knows… Everyone of course except my family. But I have no intentions of telling them for a good long while.


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